Words by Cosmic Staff
Graphic by I Should Have Been Dead Years Ago

I Should Have Been Dead Years Ago, directed by Jason Axel Summers, pulls back the curtain on the chaotic life of Stuart “Art” Gray, also known as Stu Spasm. The documentary explores his music, art, and struggles. It offers an unfiltered look at one of the Australian underground music scene’s most intriguing figures.

The film moves quickly, keeping you engaged with rare footage, intimate moments, and candid interviews. Jason includes previously unseen clips of Lubricated Goat, Stu’s Sydney band and the group behind the 1987 album Plays The Devil’s Music, which helped shape the direction of today’s underground music scene. There’s also a focus on Black Eye Records, a label that promoted noncommercial Australian music.

A Journey Into The Life Of Stu Spasm

Drawing on recollections from an array of countercultural personalities, the film features insights from Tex Perkins, Lachlan McCleod, Guy Maddison of Mudhoney, Steve Turner, and Mark Arm. What makes this documentary so compelling is Stu himself. His sharp wit and raw honesty are undeniable. Stu’s unpretentious approach to life—shaped by struggle and unconventional living—makes him an authentic and magnetic figure. His perspective on art and life is raw, revealing both the pain and passion behind his creative journey.

The film is more than just a music documentary. Stu’s personality dominates every scene, and his passion is clear. The documentary mirrors his unpredictable life, blending emotion, surprises, and raw energy.

I Should Have Been Dead Years Ago Documents A Life On the Edge

In many ways, Stu’s story calls to mind the characters of Colin Wilson’s The Outsider, a book that explores the lives of people living on the fringes of society. Stu has always lived on the edge, yet his life is not an act—it’s real. The documentary offers an honest look at the truth behind his experiences.

Tough Topics and Personal Struggles

While Jason shows Stu’s recent life in New York and work with The Art Gray Noizz Quintet in a positive light, he doesn’t shy away from difficult subjects. Stu talks openly about his struggles with drugs, including his role in scoring, he says, for Kurt Cobain during Nirvana’s MTV Unplugged session and for Nick Cave. Stu also discusses his fractured relationship with his family, violent encounters, and the tragic murder of fellow musicians.

Despite all this, Stu never stopped creating. His music, art, and sculptures are a testament to his resilience. They showcase his unique vision and his deep commitment to his craft.

Celebrating the Brisbane Debut of I Should Have Been Dead Years Ago

To celebrate the film’s Brisbane debut, there will be an event hosted by KEPK at unit J2/241 Station Road, Yeerongpilly on December 14. The evening will include live performances from three Brisbane acts. Gravel Sandwidge and Ect Unk, a new project by Glen Schneau. Both two will appear alongside Cordell from Pale Horsey.

A Special Vinyl Release

The documentary also coincides with the release of Relief/Don’t Go There, a limited-edition 7″ split vinyl from The Art Gray Noizz Quintet and Gravel Samwidge.

Reserve Your Spot

If you’re in Brisbane, don’t miss the chance to experience the debut of I Should Have Been Dead Years Ago. Reserve your spot here.